I try and try and try and try and nothing works. Why do I keep trying expecting different results and getting the same result, why do I keep trying!? He never gives me what I want, never says what I want, I need so much and he just wont give it and I try and try to tell him what I need and it just never happens, oh I could go on and on but I will stop here just like I will stop with him. I think it's all about my learning to accept and love myself, showing myself the kind attention I need I gotta learn to give to myself what I expect others to give, just leave them alone and not expect anything from anyone ever again. Im done.