Damaged Swirl (damagedswirl) wrote,
Damaged Swirl

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Forgiveness of Self

The teenager I was, was full of anger, confusion and sadness and all that turned to hatred towards myself. I became the victim of myself and not the victim of what happened to me as a child.

I lived in darkness, I cut and burnt myself not just as a way to get away from my feelings but to also punish myself. I blamed myself for what happened to me. But I don't anymore.
So why do I still put myself down?
Why do I feel as if I'm stupid?

It's because when I was with my ex him and his friends would make me feel stupid when I would share something I did.
It's not that I'm stupid, I am naive and the definition for naive is, having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality.
Doesn't sound like such a bad thing to be.

I forgive myself for hurting myself
I forgive myself for berating myself
I forgive myself for being naive
I forgive myself for being a monster towards myself.

You are not stupid, you are smart.
You are naive that means you are innocent, that means you kept your innocence after all. It's been hiding in plain sight all along.
He loved you, he was hiding from everyone.
You are loved now
Believe that you are loved.
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